Year 2011 Day 273 September 30: Dori on Self Limiting Beliefs

Day 273 Date: Friday September 30, 2011 

Beginning Comments:

            Today, I am still living in a 32 foot camper trailer which is parked within view of one of Minnesota’s 14,000+ lakes.

            The leaves here are beginning to turn, and this morning I had the delightful experience of being able to walk on a road which was ankle deep in dead leaves, where I could swish through them with my feet.

            Ever since I was a kid, swishing through leaves has been one of the joys of life.

            The temperature was only 37 (2-3 Celsius?)  this morning when I took a long walk.  Mist was rising from the lake and the smell of the world turning to autumn was wonderful.  Though I heard critters and birds rustling and calling out there were no loons this morning. 

            It doesn’t matter – they were around on other days, and I cannot think of a bird that puts out a call as mystical as a loon.

            Many of us who live in cities or in the suburbs can only witness nature partially or not at all; for most of us that also requires effort – of getting out of our little man made boxes and seeking the nature trails, etc.

            This little vacation then has then been really good for me.

            I thought I might not be happy being ten miles or more from the nearest town (gas, stores, you name it) but I have not found that it’s not that big a deal.

            One of my reasons for returning to Minnesota was that I hoped to gain perspective on the changes in my life.

            It has been very clear that the health crisis I am still working through has been the result of years of negative energy which has been eating away at me.

            Since my surgery, what that negative energy looks like is getting clearer and clearer; this has allowed me to purge many negative emotions I have had trouble getting rid of.

            Last night, I had a discussion about creating your own reality.

            I was explaining that I have believed in the concept now for more than thirty years,  have worked with the concept just as long, and still run into ‘creativity blocks’.

            For the last few years, the blocks, in fact, have gotten bigger and bigger, in spite of enormous effort in finding ways (emotional and physical) to remove them.

            My illness actually became an agent for me to see what and where the blocks were.

            These blocks, in spite of being the “elephant in the living room” were emotionally invisible to me and therefore I could not move them.

            I am beginning to see that the easiest way of missing a block is thinking that one has already cleared it.

            My experience is that if I touch an emotional issue and recognize it more intellectually than emotionally, then trying to deal with it on an affirmation level doesn’t work very well.

            For instance, years ago, in the middle of a life crisis, I suddenly realized that I saw myself as not a valuable person.

            At the time, I was living in a way that reflected this idea about myself.

            The release experience was tremendously emotional, and I found that, within a few months, anybody that did not treat me with value, or anything I owned that had little value, disappeared out of my reality, leaving me free to create a life that reflected my value.

            Now I seem to be in another crisis; I am beginning to think that sometimes it takes an intense stirring up of physical reality before the body is willing to eject self limiting beliefs – or is it that when the body is finally willing to eject self limiting beliefs, it creates a crisis?

            And is this process true for most people?  Does it take some kind of crisis for people to face their self limiting beliefs and change them?

            I don’t know but I think this is something to ponder:

Beginning Time:  CDT 9/30/2011 9:19:29 AM Location: Becker county, Minnesota

Energy Shift:

"Ashunayetya!

            Today, as I begin my energy shift, EKtavasi words seem to be invading my brain:

            Nok-you slat new bpit shaat nickli.

            There are only those words so I ask for a translation.

            Faith in self comes to those who persevere.     

            Ashunayetya!

                     Dori"

Ending Time:   CDT 9:23:26 A.M.

Ending Comments:  

            There was a better word than persevere, but I could not seem to pull it in.  

            One last note:  Monday,  I will still be on the road and plan to publish a blog earlier or later, depending on where I can get internet access.

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